Friday, November 16, 2007
loser for life 4:38 PM
"um.. lets pretend we hugged.. cya soon dumb dumb.. missya"
"argh.. feeling terible.. i love you.."
its 16th nov..
pushed training to thurs..
so today can fetch you..
went airport with stefan at 11.30..
reach budget terminal at 12.45.. after eating..
saw you walking out at 1.35..
i was happy.. so excited abt you coming back..
but i saw u..
i sense sth wrong..
then you said "a lot happened to me"
i started to fear.. fear wat i scared of.. will really come to reality..
but.. it came..
it really came..
10days..
i miss u day and night..
but well.. im the one who is to be blamed..
i hate myself..
tt call..
tt reaction of mine..
burst away everyth..
i suck.
sry part b, im not a good PS
sry mom, im not a good son
sry friends, i failed to be a good one
sry na, im not even good..
i was trying so hard not to break down in front of them..
its so hard..
on the way back home..
it was such a sad and long journey..
memories before u going to chiangmai flow like theres no tomorrow..
those memories..
im afraid im the only one who care abt them now..
i love you no matter what..
if you need me..
i will be there..
always..
i promise..
shattered...
& lost..
gone..
"wai, i've changed. My feeling for you has faded"
i just ate roasted rabbit
