Friday, November 30, 2007
10:45 PM
i think im horrible..
i just ate roasted rabbit
9:37 PM
hahah..
you arent keeping anyth now..
changing everyth..
tt FFVIII pic...
everyth..
i wonder if you are still using tt wallet..
i wonder if you are still keeping tt necklace..
i wonder if you are still keeping those dumb things tt i gave you..
i know
you will use tt slipper..
cos you love it..
not bcos i bought for you..
you will use tt shoe..
cos you only got it..
not bcos other thing..
how i wish we were like last year de this time
yea.. im boring..
what a boring guy can bring you?
boredom..
1yr
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waiwai you sucks 7:51 PM
wooots.. i really know how to waste time eh?
1+ until 7..
hmmm.. let me count.. 6+ hrs?
woots
but no one care..
today went to sch to do some saikang..
then played basketball..
well, its a great time..
then called canadian pizza..
xD mr yeow treats!
after tt, i waited.. for dunno what..
for sth.. but tt just dont happen
just a talk..
well, 6+hr isnt long i guess..
cos, she dn even want to look at me after tt..
so i just watch her board her bus and left..
how nice..
i dunno who is she anymore la..
she just change overnight like tt..
WHY ARE YOU DOING SO FREAKING MUCH FOR HER
SHE DONT EVEN APPRECIATE AT ALLL
AT ALL
SHE SUCKS
COME ON LA
CAN YOU WAKE UP OR NOT WAIWAI
ONLY YOU FEEL PAIN?
LIKE SHE FEEL PAIN ALSO
SHE DONT EVEN SHOW ANY SIGN OF PAIN
WHEN SHE SAID ALL THESE
WAIWAI, YOU ARE SO BLOODY WEAK
CRY ALL THE WAY HOME?
WTF
GO SCREW YRSELF
LIKE SHE WILL CARE FOR YOU
NO SHE WILL NOT!
BLOODY HELL
HEARTLESS
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what is this.. 1:20 AM
for the past few days.. no..
weeks..
we were really okay?
or maybe only i think its okay now..
now you even want to end our friendship..
as friends..
what is this la..
i didnt do anyth wrong..
zzzzz..
your mood just change like bomb dropping..
not even hav time to intercept it..
and you expect me to accept it..
you are like taking the drugs away from a badly addicted drug addict..
it has a killing instinct..
guess i have fallen far too too too deep..
anyway, you dn care..
relationship?
friends?
all gone..we are absolutely nth.. now..
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Thursday, November 29, 2007
dumb promises.. 11:32 PM
one thing learnt from the movie today..
'promise is easy to make'
'but maybe it just harder to keep one'
i just ate roasted rabbit
its alrdy lost.. her feeling 10:32 PM
what the hell am i doing..
is it worth to do so much for her..
when she is sick.. waited whole night for her call..
when she had a super bad stomachache.. you tried to be there with her every moment to check if she is okay..
when even she just got a slight fever.. you were like her mum or what.. worried..
when she says she has no money.. paid for her meal..
and so on..
so what..but does she really appreciate.. i dunno..
she doesnt show care at all when im drench
how i wish im sick now..
just the slightest bit of care will do..
but from what is happening.. she dont..
she is so
on & off..day before we were super fine..
today somehow she just so dao..
whether in msn or sms..
today went for movie with part C..
'fred claus' was the tittle if i didnt rmb wrongly..
it was abt christmas and of cos santa claus..
& it reminded me abt last christmas..
this christmas..
i guess gotta be quite lonely.. haha..
you could have waited for me..
its just 5mins..
but you chose to go home..
tts sad..
i dunno..
seeing you treating me this way..
just makes me go back to the days whereby you just came back from chiangmai..
this sucks..
emo. sad. confused. whatever.
me- 'i wont let go unless you let go'
her- 'same here'
she has alrdy let go.. why cnt you let go..
screw you, waiwai.
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Wednesday, November 28, 2007
everything's changing 1:58 PM
well, just came back from part Bravo camp`07
hahahah..
had a tough time observing everyone
what a tiring job to do..
hmm..
she really changed a lot now or mayb she is back to her old old old self
i dn know..
she has a lot of 'wants' now..
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007
11:47 PM
i asked 'think i expected too much'
you replied 'yea.. guess so..'
hahaha..
hope i dn get sick then..
thanks for the two msges thoughtthat were good enough..
waiwai..
you are so dumb
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10:10 PM
well..
today morning went to pay part b camp and annual camp money
but then in the end paid nth
-.-
went home after tt..
then set off to meet her b4 goin to sch..
passed her the mp3 player..
well.. it become so precious to me..
reach sch at abt 4.30..
changed and headed to safra..
mr lee said we get gold for Best Unit Competition or not..
we are the deciding factor.. part c shooting comp
well.. im sure we will do our best..
very best..
gotta maintain the gold..
cnt afford to lose it..
came back sch
walked less than 3mins..
suddenly it just rained heavily.. -.-
i guess god also bu shuang me.. dots..
hahah..
ran home..
hmm.. now soaking wet..
while running home in the rain..
i thought.. thought of the very first time i requested to send you to changi village for work..
brought an umbralla.. so dumb..
you said you like being in the rain..
and thought tt
what can be nicer if you were beside me..
running with me..
at least i wnt feel so cold..
literally and of cos deeper thought..
anyway.. i guess u dn really care abt me now
im wet.. haha..
held on to this page for 1hr le..
well turning dry alrdy..
hope yr thumb is btr now..
well.. the two msges warmed my heart..
really..
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3:23 PM
Wait For You lyrics
[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.
Great song eh.. i think will do the same..
sry
i just ate roasted rabbit
Monday, November 19, 2007
1:04 AM
well.. i guess.. its all a joke..
i miss you.
stay strong?
every single pillar is breaking.
what a nice fantasy i was dreaming..
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Sunday, November 18, 2007
11:42 AM
perhaps im not a good enough to be a role model for part b or mayb part c `08
how lousy..
my life is just keep falling and falling apart now..
i need to find sth to hang on..
sigh..
how to get up.
i just ate roasted rabbit
10:50 AM
sigh..
part a ps..
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Saturday, November 17, 2007
i cnt stand it.. 10:21 AM
sigh..
i cnt stop thining..
i really cnt..
its like every moment..
sth just pop up..
i go anywhere..
theres a image of u and... me..
i feel so sad..
so sad..
those days.. were really good..
i browse thru the photos.. yr sms..
i just..
just break down..
i dunno how to pick up myself..
i feel so alone..
no one cares..
how i wish u will be there..
but.. u just wnt..
i really love you..
teach me how to stop thinking..
even friends can betray..
i dunno who to trust alrdy..
each day just aimlessly passes by..
will there even be a chance of you seeing this..
no..
living in a reality..dreaming for a fantasy..
i just ate roasted rabbit
Friday, November 16, 2007
6:27 PM
we were so good even as friend b4 you went chiang mai..
now..
i dunno wat to say...
what hav i done..
what hav i done..what hav i done..
what hav i done..
feeling so so teerible..
u just came back and say
"my feeling for you hav faded"
"i am not goin to do anyth tts goes along yr way"
why are u even so cruel now..
so hurtful..
i love u so much..
i dunno what to do..
i believe we can make out..
but u believe the opposite..
im tryin very hard la..
really very very hard..
can just care for my feeling a bit..
just a bit i will be very happy..
but no..
u want to be cruel..
u made up yr mind, u want to wash away all your feeling for me..
u hav decided..
why??
why must you purposely do tt..
we were so happy b4 you went chiangmai..
it hurts..
it just hurts...
who is out there caring for how i feel now..
not even you..
u dn want to care..
u dn even wish to care..
can someone tell her how terrible i feel..
guess theres none..
none..
i love you so much..
yet crying like a cry baby..
i hate myself totally..
i just dn understand..
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5:46 PM
when i saw u coming out from the arrival hall..
u gav your friends a hug..
how i wish i could hug you there as well..
i miss u so much..
ardorele.
i just ate roasted rabbit
5:35 PM
i just cnt stop thinking now..
feel so terrible..
i love you so much....
"it has faded"
"it has faded"
"it has faded"
it just keep ringing in my head..
& the memories..
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loser for life 4:38 PM
"um.. lets pretend we hugged.. cya soon dumb dumb.. missya"
"argh.. feeling terible.. i love you.."
its 16th nov..
pushed training to thurs..
so today can fetch you..
went airport with stefan at 11.30..
reach budget terminal at 12.45.. after eating..
saw you walking out at 1.35..
i was happy.. so excited abt you coming back..
but i saw u..
i sense sth wrong..
then you said "a lot happened to me"
i started to fear.. fear wat i scared of.. will really come to reality..
but.. it came..
it really came..
10days..
i miss u day and night..
but well.. im the one who is to be blamed..
i hate myself..
tt call..
tt reaction of mine..
burst away everyth..
i suck.
sry part b, im not a good PS
sry mom, im not a good son
sry friends, i failed to be a good one
sry na, im not even good..
i was trying so hard not to break down in front of them..
its so hard..
on the way back home..
it was such a sad and long journey..
memories before u going to chiangmai flow like theres no tomorrow..
those memories..
im afraid im the only one who care abt them now..
i love you no matter what..
if you need me..
i will be there..
always..
i promise..
shattered...
& lost..
gone..
"wai, i've changed. My feeling for you has faded"
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Tuesday, November 06, 2007
chiangmai 10:48 PM
hmm very very long nvr post le..
ytd night went lewis hse to stay overnight so can go send the chiangmai ppl to BUDGET terminal..
hahaha...
anyway, we supposed meet at 3.30 to eat supper tgt..
but wellxzx..
we over slpt.. OPPPS!
yea.. before shengchao came to fetch me from white sand in a cab,
was at mcdonal's with her..
thnx for the donut btw.. ^^
hmm..
last time seeing her..
until............ 123456789days ltr..
10 DAYS!
first day gna finish soon...
wandering what you doing down there..
=//
hahahaa..
9more days to go..
handphone a bit siao i think..
dunno why cnt reply sms..
-.-
sigh..
16 nov.. RAR!
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